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i'm so bloody pissed and disappointed in myself!!!!! arghhhhhhhh if i could i would definitely punch myself in the face or kick myself in the butt. well technically i CAN do that but i probably wouldn't do it seriously and with full force.

but i'm still DAMN pissed off right now.

you know why? the reason might seem trivial but still i can't help being annoyed the crap outta me.

and the reason is that i screwed up playing vball for IH! almost every time i got the ball i just spaced out and let it pass, so it fell to the floor. wth!! i don't know why i did, but i just stood and watched it go pass when i could have easily stepped into place and dug the ball! even the coach had enough of me and quickly subbed me out for another player. arghhhhhhhh that is so majorly embarrasing and disappointing no?

arghhhhhhhhh i feel so down now.

sorry i'm a competitive person when it comes to sports and playing like crap doesn't sit well with me.

i hate feeling like the weakest link in a team. ok, i'm sure nobody likes being the weakest link, but i especially HATE, LOATHE, DETEST, ABHOR that feeling. even though we won in the end, i still feel bad.

arghhhhhhhhhhhh. damn damn damn damn damn damn damn it.

i wish i could come up with more creative curses but i'm too busy wallowing in self-hate right now.

ok i think that's enough. i need to go off and sulk now.